Finally got to be where the soul feels loved.
Where the skies glow bright, where the shores don’t bluff.
The eyes had cried, cried from dawn to dusk.
Now rains find the same and instil them with trust.
The mind knows that this will walk away, and all will be in dust.
Illusions you call them? But sometimes they are enough!
The falsity of holding on to the non-existing strings can be so strong that the thought of losing grip could make you nervous. But let it lose a little and get hold of the reality. The world will be a better place trust me.
As I look at the years that have passed at sometimes casual and more often at a brutal pace the picture seems unclear. I hardly remember what life has been lately. And I know I am not alone in this. People usually see blur lines when they don’t have happy endings or closure to the situations. But lucky are the ones who have permanent people with them. The ones who make solid marks among those hazy shades.
Today when I was asked ‘How have you been?’ and was told ‘I miss you!’ it brought back that old smile. That old togetherness. That joy, which I guess I too was missing. Mutual feelings?
I don’t know what to say. I am not the one who opens up. Times have changed drastically! In an unexpected way. But then I have learnt to get things together. And now I have decided to pay very little heed to all these things. I know I cannot escape them totally but I have decided to smile all through the hell. Time and again you all have been my support. The reasons for my smile. And I mean that. Right from the bottom of my heart.
It’s on rarest of the rarest occasions that I say all this and today is one of them since you plucked those strings. You people are my life. No matter how far we stay I am not letting you people go. Thank you for being the unconditional care takers, you all have been like pillars whether I had asked for it or not.
My constants! My forevers.
P.S – Don’t start soaring the limitless sky! Love you all loads.
Did I hear some shattering? I guess I did. But when I looked around, you were smiling bright. How do you do that? I mean your pretty self. How do you make up for all that breaks you every single moment?
Everyone is fighting their own unseen but strongly felt battles. Sometimes it’s about the never ending wait for happiness. Sometimes it’s against our hopes. Sometimes it’s about holding onto the bygones and other times it’s about the urge to forget them all.
I know you’ll never say it out loud because no one has the cure for putting an end to it. But hey little fighter, you are not alone in this. Remember, time can heal the worst wounds.
Don’t let the burden of past spoil your future. Believe in your dreams and chase them with more vigor. Let the sound of your battles echo the sky. Because when they will resound the world will hear drums of your victory! :)))
And who can deny the words of the magician of romance and tragedy? Today, my week-long delayed post is dedicated to all the single pals who blame expectations for their not so happening 14th Feb. :p
So? Where to start from? Yes it was like a fairy tale. Everything so elate and soulful. But then that bubble of happiness plops. What happened? Expectations happened!
‘She could never be what I wanted!’ Or ‘He was way too scared to commit to my dreams.’ The list of complaints which grows much longer with expectations is never ending.
You say that you don’t know how it ended up being in all mess but then my friend it began when you started to see things with one sided perception, from your side only. Imagine the scenario if you had never put ‘terms & conditions’ to your love. If you had given it away without the fear of loss! If you had never judged? If you had not been the curator of expectaions! The view is pretty mesmerising I know. :)))
So the trick is actually quite simple. You have no right. Yeah you read that correctly! No right to expect your happiness from others. The only person you should look upto with hopes of good or bad is you yourself. Think twice before falling for anything because then there is no room for ‘being self centered’. Then being selfless is the only way to drive things as you want. ❤
It hurts I know. Every time you are played like the Jack in the pack of cards? A little less valued. Being taken for granted.
Mean right? But then you own a very sensitive thing preserved by your ribs within your chest. It beats unconditionally for wrong things and ends up getting trampled by those whom you call mean.
And then it begins! You start to build a strong wall around yourself to keep away from your own feelings. Slowly distance grows and the unconditional thing stops beating it’s usual self.
In the process of trying to resist the emotional flood we unknowingly immolate our own self, brick by brick! But if truth be told, even the strongest of the buildings fall when winds hit at right places, and we are talking about the sensitive throbber here. Up till when do you expect to stay so strong?
That wall is meant to crack and then fall one day for good because you cannot resist being a gem even if they are all mean and same.
It was a spring with clear skies; Hues all around.
The sun was warm; Happiness bound.
It was mystic, it was magic; The heart would pound.
The glow was automatic; No reasons announced.
But season changed; The unpleasant skies down.
Leaves changed color; Yellow came unannounced.
The eyes lingered; Solace unfound.
But now I am settled for the best; Hopes on the ground.
What was the last time you felt unseemly or horrid or awful? Not from the outside but from inside. When your inner self denied to stay at peace? I am sure a bad hair day could never bring such strong feelings to you.
The world is a mix of people. Some with good intellect while others who could make you feel worse. Treat you like you have some mental issues. Curbing your dreams and aspirations all together into their narrow minds.
Usually they won’t get the thoughts and anxiety, to overcome that not so happening life of yours. You might look for hope in them but then my friend its only you who can be the torch bearer to make a way through that closing maze.
Views and opinions can be tormenting at times but nothing can overpower you untill you allow it.
Take control and give it a shot. Sucker punch your dooming self! Shut your ears to every word that lets you drown. Rise and shine and see how those eyes become blind.