We have come so far. You were always there.
Sometimes it’s not about the person but feelings!
Living each day with you has certainly changed me in ways that I can’t explain.
I’ve grown to be a person with clear insights. You never said much, just spread your magic silently. I found you, I found contentment. The twinkle in your eyes and the beam on your face has always escalated my confidence. You always taught me how not to care about people and how to love myself. It’s only you in the end always, you said. You’re an indestructible woman and I truly admire you for that. Be it any situation, your hand was always my aid. Having you was the only assurance I ever needed. The significance of what is happening was clearer to you than to me. You could easily comprehend what was untold. Such was the connection that we shared. We witnessed many storms together but there was always a beautiful smile plastered on your face. My strength.
But sometimes with time you fail to realize that this is a cycle. You and I are also a part of this cycle. As we both stand at the edge of this wonderful journey, I can see two divergent roads which will lead the two of us in different directions. I think the cycle ends here for both of us. It’s a bit painful to even imagine a life without you but with your unfading faith in me, I will survive.
It’s like everything you ever earned is slipping from your hand and you can’t do anything but let it slip away. Sometimes you can’t explain what you see in a person. Sometimes you can only thank God for their presence in your life.
The wittiest. The strongest. The courageous. The funniest. The charmer. The realist. The best.
Because you are the only Best Friend I have.
My constant. My forever.
Time will not be normal again I know because I left my portions in the people I left behind. Today as I walked outside the gates I realized that those roads will never be traveled again. Those faces will never cross again. Those waves of laughter will never be heard again. And those eyes will never be warm again.
These years were like a movie. All the bittersweet moments captured in clicks. And today they slipped away in the blink of an eye. Happy is what I should feel that the show ended. But then the most awaited ‘right’ feels like the worst wrong.
Sometimes the soul bleeds more than it was supposed to beam with joy. And then it breaks. Breaks into pieces that are irreparable. Scatters into portions that are unfixable. How much do I wish upon the stars to revisit everything that brings me back to the person I used to be, with my favorite people around. To relive how we could make the most serious times into comedy of errors or the sunny days into raining clouds! But this will remain a wish ungranted. <\3
I thought I would bid my adieus to a nightmare with a smile but here I am with tears running down my cheeks :’) No it’s not nostalgia that struck me. Maybe the strongest realization, that I lost my scattered portions in the most beautiful tides. ❤
The falsity of holding on to the non-existing strings can be so strong that the thought of losing grip could make you nervous. But let it lose a little and get hold of the reality. The world will be a better place trust me.
As I look at the years that have passed at sometimes casual and more often at a brutal pace the picture seems unclear. I hardly remember what life has been lately. And I know I am not alone in this. People usually see blur lines when they don’t have happy endings or closure to the situations. But lucky are the ones who have permanent people with them. The ones who make solid marks among those hazy shades.
Today when I was asked ‘How have you been?’ and was told ‘I miss you!’ it brought back that old smile. That old togetherness. That joy, which I guess I too was missing. Mutual feelings?
I don’t know what to say. I am not the one who opens up. Times have changed drastically! In an unexpected way. But then I have learnt to get things together. And now I have decided to pay very little heed to all these things. I know I cannot escape them totally but I have decided to smile all through the hell. Time and again you all have been my support. The reasons for my smile. And I mean that. Right from the bottom of my heart.
It’s on rarest of the rarest occasions that I say all this and today is one of them since you plucked those strings. You people are my life. No matter how far we stay I am not letting you people go. Thank you for being the unconditional care takers, you all have been like pillars whether I had asked for it or not.
My constants! My forevers.
P.S – Don’t start soaring the limitless sky! Love you all loads.
Did I hear some shattering? I guess I did. But when I looked around, you were smiling bright. How do you do that? I mean your pretty self. How do you make up for all that breaks you every single moment?
Everyone is fighting their own unseen but strongly felt battles. Sometimes it’s about the never ending wait for happiness. Sometimes it’s against our hopes. Sometimes it’s about holding onto the bygones and other times it’s about the urge to forget them all.
I know you’ll never say it out loud because no one has the cure for putting an end to it. But hey little fighter, you are not alone in this. Remember, time can heal the worst wounds.
Don’t let the burden of past spoil your future. Believe in your dreams and chase them with more vigor. Let the sound of your battles echo the sky. Because when they will resound the world will hear drums of your victory! :)))
Sometimes we just need to hear the right words and thoughts to lift up the spirit. 😀
#Lettr by Yash
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I craft these words to speak my mind.
To tell the stories buried deep inside.
To part with sorrows that were never kind.
To find the missing peace hidden in demise.
To dance out the feelings in words with time.
To drug the hearts that read them, with love and life! ❤
People meet you for a reason, for a season or for life time!
It’s always those unexpected meetings or conversations that can be overwhelming, both good and bad. I know right? I mean just after a casual exchange of the random thoughts it clicks that they all connect. And as the list grows you are smiling wide throughout, enjoying the weirdest said and unsaid.
Since the beginning of the ride, the endings were well known. For neither the bad things stay forever nor the best moments last a life time. And then those smiles have to vanish. The connections lost! The happy time passes and goodbyes knock at the doors? How I wish I never had to answer that. How I wish the road had never ended. But then I don’t stay in heaven right? :p
Lately I have realized that attachments don’t need ages to develop, it’s about the moment which brings your heart immense joy. The moments that turn you loquacious and expressive. The moments that are ‘forevers’ in your scribbles of a lifetime.
P.S – This is no post-breakup cry! (LOL!!) Just a random thought that if we could put a hold on the good times it would be a bliss. 😀 To live a little more, to laugh a little harder. Who knows it was the last best thing we were hearing! ❤
No I am not writing you the film’s review. But a review on what our story has been since the past 21 1/2 years. It is a long one so read it with patience (just like I have been with you).
The time has been nothing but full of odds. And I had hated you for all that every single day. Why did you have to be so unfair? Mom used to say it’s just a test to deserve a better tomorrow but I never see it coming. You always brought things which were out of syllabus and I am sure you have more of it, so no better tomorrow for me? Happier one? A little may be!
I used to complain a lot about you being so heartless and biased at times. But lately it has changed. I have started to accept you the way you are. I mean, one of us has to be understanding and you, my mate, are not ready to take the step so let me be the initiator of simple acquaintance. So what has changed between me and you in the past few years is my perception towards what you do to me. Good or bad we are together in this. It would be wrong to blame you alone in a team’s play! Right? I am not giving up on making you good.
Keep throwing stones and see how I make bridges out of them. One day you’ll have to play the good part too my friend, and I hope it comes soon.
What was the last time you felt unseemly or horrid or awful? Not from the outside but from inside. When your inner self denied to stay at peace? I am sure a bad hair day could never bring such strong feelings to you.
The world is a mix of people. Some with good intellect while others who could make you feel worse. Treat you like you have some mental issues. Curbing your dreams and aspirations all together into their narrow minds.
Usually they won’t get the thoughts and anxiety, to overcome that not so happening life of yours. You might look for hope in them but then my friend its only you who can be the torch bearer to make a way through that closing maze.
Views and opinions can be tormenting at times but nothing can overpower you untill you allow it.
Take control and give it a shot. Sucker punch your dooming self! Shut your ears to every word that lets you drown. Rise and shine and see how those eyes become blind.